I Know Pain but I Also Know the King

It is late in the evening and the sun has long since tucked itself into bed. I have not. My heart aches for the brokenhearted, for those whose prayers are yet unanswered, for those whose hope has melted into mist. It is for the brokenhearted and for the forgotten that I pray. It is for the ones who feel hopeless that I intercede. If this sounds like you, then read on. If this sounds like someone you know, then tell them about this blog.

                                              
I have spent a good portion of my life in severe emotional pain due to persistent sexual abuse, emotional torture, and death threats as a child. For years I have lived in unspeakable pain and unbearable sadness. I suffered from migraines since I was eight years old; only recently has the pain become treatable. That treatment came due to a rare double stroke which I suffered as a complication of a migraine. But despite the pain, I loved God and I knew He loved me.

Then I got cancer and life got even tougher. I prayed for death but God had a different idea. He gave me a pastor who loved me and a therapist who understood sexual abuse and emotional torture. He gave me two friends who spared no expense to see me heal. It took a lot of hard work and prayer to heal. It took time and faith and it was a slow process indeed. I have shared these things with you so that you can know deep in your heart that I have a right to speak about these issues. I have been there.

I know pain but I also know the King.

Psalm 31:7, NIV states, “I will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul.” God has considered your trouble and mine. Isn't that exciting? God has considered our trouble and He knows our soul! The Creator Himself knows our soul and He knows our heart!

The thing that we don't understand is that God can take the worst times of our lives, mold them in His hands, and transform them into something beautiful. Not only does He know our soul, He knows our soul's adversities. He knows how we react, He knows the depths of our grief, and He knows the fullness of the ache in our heart. He knows because He feels our pain.

Not only does God know and understand, but He has taken the time to consider our trouble. I picture the word considered and see a loving father who looks at our trouble from all different angles. He looks at our emotional reservoir, He looks at our faith and our hopes. He considers our dreams as He looks at what is best for us. He puts the universe on hold and considers us and our situation. Then He takes all of this pain and talks to the Father about us. He talks about you! He talks about me! By name! He confers with the Father about us! And the Father listens because Jesus has paid the price for sin, pain, even death itself. No wonder the psalmist says, “I will be glad and rejoice in thy mercy”!

If you are going through times of trouble, rejoice, because you are not alone. The Father and Son are having a conversation about you! Rejoice and be glad! Use this time of pain and suffering to draw closer to the Father and get to know Him. Remember that God is considering your situation and that Jesus is interceding day and night for you.

It is nearly morning! A new day is coming! And God is in conference with the Son about you! It’s time to rejoice!!!!!!!